Hey, I Know You

Those that haven't seen the boys in awhile have commented on how alert they appear lately. I guess its hard to see change when you are a part of it every day, and I almost feel like I'm missing out a little. Maybe that is why 'firsts' are so special to the parents, and laughable to most anybody else. There was no significant 'first' when I approached a fussing Finn is his crib last night, but it felt great to notice him remembering his pops.

Ordinarily, a fussing lad requires shushing, rocking, or at the very least a pacifier to calm him. I just leaned over the side rail and he immidiately wobbled his big head in surprise. The argument can be made that he was just startled, but his eyes were focussed when he shot me that half smirck. Not the all out goofy smile that he hams up for the ladies, but that delayed tough guy grin that he didn't expect to have to use. At 2 o'clock in the morning he just figured that dad was floating off somewhere to fight pirates like usual, and it would be mom to the rescue. Thank God he didn't start sceaming. A few seconds of holding his eyes shut, and he was back asleep. You really see how dependent they are when they wake up confused, and unsure who is on deck with a bottle.

Don't take yourself so seriously, nobody else does. I was given that advice once, and slept easier with that in mind. The only problem is that Eliot and Finley both disagree. They have an agenda every day and take it very seriously. Sometimes they watch me fumble around the kitchen to make coffee in the morning, and I can see them wondering how this could possibly be more important than their second breakfast. And then they take you seriously at 2 in the morning when they can't sleep. They get smarter and more observant every day, seeing that you too are serious about things, and rest assured knowing that.